reflections
December 27th, 2004 Merry Xmas

xnow treez
Holidays. They’re such a time of love, frustration, depression, and hope, it’s a relief to have them nearly over. Even though my religious persuasion is a somewhat waffling ambiguous mix of atheism, Judaism, paganism, and begrudging Christianity, the three weeks before Christmas are filled with angst over greeting cards and gifts. Who to send a card? Is a card enough? Do I owe a gift? If I get a card or don’t get a card is that terms for sending a card? Do I have a current address? Should I send a letter instead of a card? What do I say? Is Happy Holidays enough? Should I tell what’s happening in my life and what has gone on in the last year (or two):? What is happening in my life or has happened in my life over the last year (or two) that is worth talking about? How many people who want to know what’s happening already read my blog and don’t need an update and will think it’s stupid that I sent a card since I don’t celebrate any of the holidays? Who does this to us? Where does it come from and why? Although I do celebrate Christmas (sort of) and consider it an important time of year (mostly) because it’s one of the few times we are not only encouraged we are nearly required to stop, pay complete attention to others and visit people we love, it is also ridiculous that it makes us feel inadequate and ashamed!

BREATHE!
So.

I didn’t send a card to anyone. The guilt drove me craaazy but as Tonya pointed out, I’ve never sent cards to begin with so it’s not like they’re missed. I’m happy I got to see known people, meet new people, and eat too much but mostly? I’m GLAD it’s over.

Now I can concentrate on a holiday I truly enjoy: NEW YEAR’S!!!

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